Dr awal q bca nie,, air mata q netes dgn ndiri'a.. Gag tw krn gag rela atw kangen ma Han Kyung.. Tp emank mnurut q kta2'a mnyentuh bgd.. Lngsung bca ndiri ja dech..
Nie dia brita'a..
Boys in City Season 3 “Maybe this is the last memories for us that can see Hangeng and 13elieve. How abut future? 12? 11? Or 10? Not knowing..”
Seorang pria bernama Hangeng lahir di China, 9 Februari 1984 tumbuh menjadi laki-laki dewasa yang sangat tampan, pintar memasak, pinta menari, dan dianugrahi suara yang indah.. dialah Hangeng yang sekarang berlabel belakang Hangeng ‘Super Junior’. Pernah mikir kalo embel-embel ‘Super Junior’ yang udah neglekat di diri dia tiba-tiba dicopot? Nama Hankyung pun perlahan menghilang, berubah identitas diri selamanya bahwa ia adalah Hangeng. Bukan Hankyung. Selamanya ia akan menjadi warga China yang tidak perlu embel-embel ‘Super Junior’ lagi..
Hangeng adalah Hangeng. Memulai debutnya pertama kali tahun 2005 sebagai member Super Junior. Kalian tau Super Junior? Super Junior yang selalu percaya bahwa mereka selamanya berjumlah 13. Tapi takdir tidak berbicara demikian. Hangeng dipaksa pergi oleh keadaan.. bermula bulan Desember lalu. Kaya petir di siang bolong, tiba-tiba kita semua denger berita dia ngeluarin diri dari Super Junior. Padahal beberapa hari yang lalu sebelum gugatan itu keluar, Hangeng masih ngumpul sama member SJ yang lain, SJ masih sempet ngadirin Golden Disk Award dengan format 11 orang, Hangeng masih bisa ngangkat award bareng-bareng sama anak SJ, Hangeng masih bisa teriak lantang memperkenalkan diri diantara 10 member yang lain ‘URI SUPE JUNI-OYEO!’. Tapi sekarang? Sekarang kita udah ga pernah ngeliat dia di tengah-tengah member SJ, sekarang kita udah ga pernah denger suara dia di lagu SJ, sekarang kita udah ga pernah liat dia baris di barisan paling depan kalau lagi ngdance. Apa yang kalian rasain? Apa kalian kangen? Apa hati kalian berontak? Apa kalian justru merasa ini bukan apa-apa?
Udah banyak air mata yang kita keluarin buat Hangeng. Udah banyak doa yang kita panjatin buat Hangeng. Udah banyak suara yang kita keluarin buat nyebut nama Hangeng.. tapi apa hasilnya? Dia ga denger.. dia tutup kuping.. dia tutup mata.. yang sekarang dia pentingin adalah diri dia. Yang sekarang dia pentingin adalah hak dia sebagai manusia. Yang sekarang dia pentingin adalah support dari kita.. tapi sayangnya, bukan support yang kaya gitu yang dia mau..
Hangeng ke Korea seorang diri waktu umur dia masih 19 tahun. Umur segitu, dia masih belum negrti banyak tentang kerjaan nya. ibaratnya diumur segitu dia Cuma bisa ngomong ‘iya’ dan nganggukin kepala. Tapi sekarang dia udah dewasa. Dia udah bukan Hangeng si 19 tahun. Dia sekarang Hangeng yang berumur 26 tahun. Sekarang udah saatnya dia berontak. Udah saatnya dia bersuara tentang haknya. Dia dulu harus ngejalanin trainee 2 tahun. Selama 2 tahun itu banyak banget cobaannya. Dia harus latihan dance setiap hari. Sampe akhirnya dia ga sadar kalo kaki dia luka. Dia sadar kalo kakinya luka 3 bulan kemudian. Hangeng 19 tahun adalah Hangeng yang kesepian. Dia selalu nangis karna kangen sama keluarga nya di China. Hangeng 19 tahun adalah Hangeng yang kuat..
Cobaan Hangeng belum berakhir. Waktu awal debut, dia harus bermasalah sama visanya dan dia harus tampil pake topeng supaya ga ketangkep pihak imigrasi. Tapi dia seneng ngejalanin nya, dia tetep senyum sama semua member, karena dia sangat sangat sayang sama semua member dan Super Junior.
Foto ini diambil di sebuah acara penting yang pernah dihelat di Korea. Hangeng dengan manisnya duduk ngeliat perform ke 12 member Super Junior diatas panggung. waktu itu dia masih bermasalah sama visanya sampe-sampe dia ga dibolehin tampil diatas panggung. dia cuma bisa duduk di kursi penonton dan melihat. Untuk 8 bulan lamanya Hangeng ga muncul diacara TV. Tapi dia ga komplen, dan dia tetep bilang ke semua orang kalau dia baik-baik aja, dia percaya semuanya akan baik-baik aja..
Di akhir tahun 2007, dia tampil bareng member SJ yang lain disebuah acara yang dihelat sama Mnet. Engkel kaki Hangeng waktu itu lagi sakit, tapi dia tetep nunjukin charisma nya diatas panggung. saat naik panggungpun dia harus di bantu sama Siwon. Dan sewaktu Sj tampil, Hangeng berusaha nahan sakitnya yang luar biasa sakit demi sebuah kata “sempurna”.
Kita semua dibuat khawatir sama Hangeng..
Hangeng adalah malaikat yang dikirim untuk kita..
Gempa di China tahun lalu ngebuat hati Hangeng bergetar. Dia ga rela ngeliat sodara-sodara serumpunnya nangis kesusahan. Hangeng yang kita kenal adalah Hangeng yang mempunya hati emas. Dia nyumbangin sebagian uangnya untuk bantu para korban gempa. Hatinya menangis ngeliat orang-orang terluka, ngeliat korban yang kehilangan keluarganya.. Hangeng ga segan-segan ngulurin tangannya untuk jadi tisu air mata korban gempa..
Hangeng yang sangat mencintai negara nya, diam-diam memotret bendera negaranya saat dia berada di bandara. Bendera berwarna merah dan bergambar bintang dan bulan berwarna kuning disudut kanan atas. Itu lah yang selalu Hangeng banggakan..
Dan ketika ditanya,
“kenapa kau mengambil gambar itu?”
Lalu Hangeng menjawab dan menangis “aku hanya merasa bendera negaraku sangat indah..”
Dan sekarang kita tau kalo dia sakit. Bukan lagi kakinya yang sakit, bukan lagi fisiknya yang lemah yang masih bisa diobatin. Dia sakit ginjal. Penyakit delam udah ngerogotin tubuhnya. Hangeng pun berontak nuntut semua hak-haknya. Hangeng pun rela ninggalin Super Junior demi dirinya. Hangeng rela ninggalin kelurga dia di Korea demi haknya. Hangeng rela ngelakuin itu semua karna dia ngerasa ada yang salah sama system kontraknya. Hangeng yang sekarang lagi ngerancang masa depan tanpa Super Junior..
Kalo kita terus maksa dia supaya tetep di Sj, itu sama aja kita nyakitin dia. Kalo kita tetep berharap Hangeng di Sj, itu sama aja kita bunuh Hangeng pelan-pelan. Hangeng perlahan udah mulai menata karir dia sendiri. Perlahan Hangeng ngucapin selamat tinggal untuk kita. Perlahan Hangeng bukan lagi Hankyung. Perlahan Hangeng ‘Super Junior’ ga ada..
Kita harus relain dia pergi. Kita harus relain dia bebas. Kita harus relain dia bahagia. Izinin dia bebas di negaranya sendiri, izinin dia terbang kemanapun dia mau, izinin dia senyum ga hanya buat ELF tapi juga buat yang lain, izinin dia untuk haknya yang sempet kerampas.. lebih baik kita yang sakit daripada Hangeng yang sakit. Lebih baik kita yang nangis daripada Hangeng yang nangis. Lebih baik kita teriak-teriak nama dia daripada dia yang terus berontak..
Suatu hari nanti kita harus ngebiasain diri ngeliat airmata Heechul. Suatu hari pasti pasangan Hanchul menghilang. Suatu hari udah ga akan ada lagi hidangan nasi goreng Beijing di meja makan. Suatu hari nanti udah ga ada lagi Hankyung ‘Super Junior’. Suatu hari nanti Hangeng akan tegak berdiri sendiri dengan karir yang dibangunnya. Bila suatu saat nanti Super Junior bertemu dengan Hangeng, akan banyak airmata yang jatuh, Heechul akan menangis di pelukan Hangeng. Aku yakin itu pasti akan terjadi.
Hangeng, maukah kau mendengarnya untuk terakhir kalinya?
Jika kamu tidak lagi member Super Junior, izinkanlah aku melihat penampilanmu untuk terakhir kalinya diatas panggung bersama 12 anggota member Super Junior lainnya..
Jika kamu tidak lagi member Super Junior, izinkanlah aku melihatmu bicara panjang lebar sebagai member Super Junior..
Jika kamu tidak lagi member Super Junior, izinkanlah aku mendengar teriakan mu ‘URI NEUN SUPE JUNI-OYEO!’ untuk terakhir kalinya..
Jika kamu tidak lagi member Super Junior, tetap lah ingat sampai kau mati kalau kau pernah sangat menyayangi keluarga mu, Super Junior. Kalau kau pernah mempunyai teman bernama Everlasting Friends..
Jika kamu tidak lagi member Super Junior, tetap tersenyumlah dan bahagia lah :)
Percayalah, bahwa kami disini selalu percaya, apapun yang terjadi kau selamanya tetap anggota Super Junior..
Hangeng, kami sangat merindukan tawamu..
Dan kami tetap berdoa dan berharap..
cr: Saranghae SHINee ♥ Super Junior
ENGLISH VERSION :
When I read this,, I'm crying suddenly.. I don't know is it because I'm not willing let Han Kyung go or I miss Han Kyung.. But,, I think this is really touching my heart.. Just read it..
Boys in City Season 3 “Maybe this is the last memories for us that can see Hangeng and 13elieve. How about future? 12? 11? Or 10? Not knowing..”
A man named Han Kyung was born in China, February 9th 1984 grow into adult man that really handsome, good at cooking, good at dance, blessed with beautiful voice. He is Han Geng that labeled as Han Kyung "Super Junior" now. Did u ever think if label "Super Junior" that inherent in him be removed suddenly? Han Kyung name dissapering slowly, change personal identity into Han Geng forever. Not Hankyung. He will be Chinese people forever who will never need label "Super Junior".
Han Geng is Han Geng. He started his first debut in 2005 as Super Junior's member. Did you know Super Junior? Super Junior who always believe that they'll always 13. But destiny didn't talk this way. Han Geng forced out by circumstances. Started in December. Like lightning in broad daylight, suddenly we heard news that he'll out from Super Junior. Whereas a few days ago before the lawsuit out, Hangeng he still gathering with Super Junior's member, Super Junior still still have time to attend Golden Disk Award with 11 members, Han Geng still can raise award together with Super Junior's members, Han Geng still can shout out loud introduce himself as Super Junior's members "URINEUN SUPER JUNI-OEYO!". But now? Now we'll never see him as Super Junior's member, now we'll never heard his voice in Super Junior's songs, now we'll never see him in the front row when Super Junior dancing. What did you feel? Did you miss him?Did your heart struggle? Or you feel this is nothing?
Already so much tears we spend for Han Geng. We already pray so much for Han Geng. Already so much voice we spend for Han Geng. But, what's the result? He's not listen to us. He just cover his ears. He cover his eyes. He just want himself now. Now the most important for him is his rights as human. Now the most important for him is our support. But unfortunately, he doesn't want support like this.
Han Geng go to South Korea alone when he is 19 years old. In that age, he still don't know much about his occupation. Supposing in that age he just can say "yes" and nod his head. But, he is an adult now. He isn't 19 years old Han Geng again. Now he is 26 years old Han Geng. Now it's the time he struggle. It's the time he voiced about his rights. He used to live trainees in 2 years. In 2 years there is so much trouble. He must dance workout everyday. Until finally he didn't realize that his legs injured. He realize if his legs injured 3 months later. 19 years old Han Geng is lonely Han Geng. He always crying because he miss his family in China. 19 years old Han Geng is the strog Han Geng.
Han Geng's trouble not over. When he's debut, he must have problem with his visa and he must wear mask so he'll not catched by imigration authorities. But he was happy to run that, he keep smiling to all members, because he really love all members.
This picture taken in an important event in South Korea. Han Geng just watch 12 members with smile. That time he still have problem with his visa until he ca't perform in stage. He just can sit in spectator chairs and watch. Han Geng didn't show in TV shows for 8 months. But he isn't complain and still say to all people that he always fine and believe that all will be fine.
In the end of year 2007, he perform with Super Junior's member in a show held by Mnet. Han Geng's legs was hurt in that time, but he still show his charisma in the stage. When he rose to the stage he must assisted by Si Won. And when Super Junior perform, Han Geng try to resist his legs that really hurt for a word "perfect".
Han Geng make us worry about him..
Han Geng is an angel that sent to us.
Earthquake in China 1 years ago make Han Geng's heart vibrate. He didn't willing see his allied brothers/sisters crying. Han Geng that we knows is Hangeng that have gold heart. He donate partly of his money for helping Earthquake victim. His heart crying see injured people, see the victim that lost their family. Han Geng didn't hesitate reach his hands to be tissue for earthquake's victim.
Han Geng really loves his country, he take a picture of his country's falg quietly when he is in airport. The red flag with yellow star and moon in top right. That's always been proud of him.
And when he is asked,
“why did you take that picture?”
Then Han Geng answer and cry “I just feel that my country's flag is very beautiful.”
And now we know that he is sick. Not again his legs, not again his physical that weak and can recover. He had kidney pain. That disease has been undermined his body. Han Geng also struggle demanding his rights. Han Geng also willing leave Super Junior for himself. Han Geng willing leave his family and go to South Korea for his rights. Han Geng willing do that all because he feel there's something wrong with his contract system. Han Geng is plan his future now withou Super Junior.
If we always force him to stay in Super Junior, it's like we torture him. If we always wish Han Geng in Super Junior, it's same with we kill Han Geng slowly. Han Geng had plan his future alone slowly. Han Geng say goodbye to everyone slowly. Slowly, Han Geng isn't Han Kyung again. Slowly Han Geng "Super Junior" will dissapear.
We must willing let him go. We must willing him free. We must willing him happy. Permit him free in his country, permit him fly to whereever he want to go, permit him to smile not just for ELF but for other people too, permit him to get his rights that ever dissapear. We better hurt than Han Geng must hurt. We better crying than Han Geng crying. We better shout out his name than Han Geng always struggle.
One day we must accustomed see Hee Chul's tears. One day HanChul couple must dissapear. One day there isn't Beijing Fried Rice again in dinning table. One day there isn't Han Kyung "Super Junior" again. One day Han Geng will stand upright wuth his career. If one day Super junior meet Han Geng, will there's so much tears will fall, Hee Chul will cry in Han Geng's arms. I believe that will happen.
Han Geng, would you hear him for the last time?
If you're not a member of Super Junior again, permit us to watch your perform for the last time in the stage with 12 Super Junior's members.
If you're not Super Junior's member again, permit us to see you talk a lot as Super Junior's member.
If you're not Super Junior's member again, permit us to hear you shout out "URINEUN SUPER JUNI-OEYO!" for the last time.
If you're not Super Junior's member again, please still remember until you dead that you ever really loves your family, Super Junior. If you has friends named Everlasting Friends.
If you're not Super Junior's member again, please still smiling and live happily. :)
Please believe that we always believe in here, whatever will happen you still Super Junior's member forever.
Han Geng, we really miss your laugh.
And we still pray and wish.
cr: Saranghae SHINee ♥ Super Junior
Translated by : SellyLuvSJ4ever
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